My Baby Orchid.
Yep things are all baby around here....even though I want to grow up already.
Venturing out of the apartment is looming as the need for groceries rears it's ugly head again and it's preceded by dropping Bella off at the groomers.
But that's tomorrow so I can still breathe easier today. I may take a baby step across the road to the market to help prep me for the venture out tomorrow.
The good news is my plan is working...making the polymer fangs has me beading again with tutorials in mind. There's still that lump in my throat as I think about writing and know I have to start small so I can have a success that will give me courage. I find I'm still beating myself up a bit at being played for a fool (I still don't get how those people live with themselves, using people who have been nothing but kind and helpful to them) but I think I'm venting some of it out now. I can now see the glimmer of 'fight back' mode, and what that means for me is always putting my creativity out there...doing something original.
I'm joking, I have an Artfire store but annoyingly as I was ready to begin listing the fangs all packed in the box which are priced, sized and photographed the site is experiencing issues and is running so slowly the gateways to publish timed out. Grrr! Baby step forward, baby step back, cha cha cha.
As I couldn't do that I picked up the beads to experiment with what can be done with the fangs.....ideas are beginning to add up, here's a couple of sneak peeks.
The more I work with the fangs the more possibilities I see. Polymer is so much more versatile than glass when it comes to adding extra holes which is something very desirable for bead weaving and maybe even bead embroidery where the need for glue would be eradicated.
My creativity is flowing a lot more like normal and I'm making progress but I am still held back by the agoraphobia.....I wish it was gone already! Not being able to get out and do things I need to do is causing me anxiety attacks and insomnia. I just have to be glad my business eeked through another month and I still have a roof over my head and can buy what I need....things could always be worse.
So today I build up courage to go out into the big wide world full of people again. Preparation H day......cos it's a huge pain in the butt!