I am the same person inside but my shell is tougher, thicker and I now don't just listen to my gut I act on what it tells me. Anyone looking to use me or manipulate me better think twice is what I'm saying...lol!
They say it's not the falling down but the getting back up that tells your true character. The ability to turn a sow's ear into a silk purse...hell, if I can make a purse from the idea to cross a lotus blossom and an armadillo....no problemo!
What I have learned is that when this crap happens you have to pull the weeds in your garden, pour acid on them if that's what it takes and sure it may mess up the soil for a while but nature will do it's cleanse and eventually things will go back to balance. And as the acidity level of the soil was changed different things grow. For me it means my designs have changed a bit....right now they are simpler, and many include my polymer work which leads me right into kitting my designs. Kitting is a whole different ballgame and takes a lot more $$ to do but using my own components and starting small I can do this :)
One thing I love about making my own components....I can put the bloody holes anywhere I want them and as many as I want! *grin* I have 24 holes in one design....try that with glass!
What also has seemed to happen is a clearer view of my design aesthetic, what I enjoy doing and want my work to be. Fun is what bubbles to the surface, fun, happy designs in powerful colors. And, of course, full of originality and inventiveness. The hardest thing is going to be hopping back to the designs that got left in the lurch....Tilt-A-Whirl, Maypole and Skelter...but I believe if I just change the colors up and take my time I can do it. I just need to work up to the BIG designs and designing around my polymer seems to be just the right direction to get me back on the path.