Monday, December 12, 2011

Trying

After being hit by another mac truck I'm trying to be positive.
I'm trying to not let it destroy me.
I'm trying to be hopeful.
I'm trying to be generous in any way I can.
I'm trying to stay on my diet even though Mom is sabotaging me.
I'm trying not to cry all the time.
I'm trying to work.
I'm trying to be thankful.

But I feel empty, alone and tired of trying.

3 comments:

  1. Mikki, I know how alone life can feel and I know how hopeless it seems sometimes. I don't know you personally and I don't know the things that are causing you this pain...but please know that you are not alone in this world.

    You are a strong and beautiful artist and you create strong and beautiful art!

    I know that a strangers words might feel empty or hollow, but please know that you inspire me with your art and with the truth that you share here.

    I am thankful for the beauty that you bring to this world and I am thankful for your honesty.

    And I am hoping that you let yourself cry until you feel better.

    Sending you lots of postitve, peaceful and calming thoughts...and great big cyber hugs!

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  2. Thanks....it does help that someone out there gives a damn. I gave up my life to be there for Mom after my Dad died...it's in storage along with all my personal belongings. I thought it would just be for a year or so.....it's been seven!
    I'm in a place where the things I enjoy don't exist no matter how hard I tried to find them or fit in with what they do here. I'm a fish out of water. People may not understand it or think it's trivial but my soul is dying.
    My art isn't appreciated here and I long to be back where it is.

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