Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Talking to Oneself or Is Anybody Out There?

I guess that's the question when you write a blog. I've had a few comments and a couple of people tell me they read this but for the most part I just feel like I'm talking to myself....nothing new, I talk to myself a LOT!

Sometimes I just need to hear something that's rattling around in my head, it could be a design problem, a people problem or just me rehearsing lines for an upcoming class or event. I have a habit of explaining what I'm doing as I bead alone, a teacher thing (or that's what I tell myself). It's how I get the design into my head to write a pattern later.
I also talk out loud when I have a conversation coming up that I'm not comfortable with...I tend to rehearse all possible responses. People often say that I'm very calm, patient and I never seem to get angry.....that's pretty much because I have this ritual. If something happens that could make me angry I tend to suck it up at the moment so I can think about it with a clear head and decide if it's really worth getting angry about. That way I can tackle the issue or the person in a calm, collected manner.

The bad thing is not everyone responds to calm and collected. Some people only respond or 'get it' if you get up in their face and shout your head off. I had a room mate like that and the sit down and talk calmly thing didn't do a thing to stop her stealing food and putting empty boxes back in the cupboard. Getting in someone's face and shouting is not my way of dealing with things so if I have to do it I have to rely on my acting skills. And that, of course, needs rehearsal.

I have visions of myself as an old woman wandering around talking to myself and people thinking I'm crazy...not that they don't think that now.

So...what can you do to help me out? Just click one of the little 'reaction' boxes under my posts so I know this blog isn't just me talking to myself and that there are people out there.


  1. Hi there! Yes, there are LOTS of people out here and LOTS of them are beaders who like to blog and read blogs. :)

    I have spent the last 10 minutes reading your stories and truly enjoyed learning about your life's adventure. I think you are very brave, not to mention extremely talented!!

    I'd love to share some of your work on my blog Friday and tell a little bit about you from info you have shared if you wouldn't mind. I am inspired by your passion and the fact things keep happening for you to reassure you that you are on the right path. That's exciting! Let me know what you think, take care, Lisa C., www.abeadaday.blogspot.com

  2. Hi Mikki,

    I'm hearing you, too. While looking at the rain in Italy. I sometimes have the feeling, that I only write my blog for myself, but who cares as long as I enjoy writing it. :-)

  3. Thanks guys, it's nice to know I'm not typing into a black hole. Lisa....how sweet of you, I'd love that...I frequently check your blog...the beads you feature are always inspiring.


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