I guess that's the question when you write a blog. I've had a few comments and a couple of people tell me they read this but for the most part I just feel like I'm talking to myself....nothing new, I talk to myself a LOT!
Sometimes I just need to hear something that's rattling around in my head, it could be a design problem, a people problem or just me rehearsing lines for an upcoming class or event. I have a habit of explaining what I'm doing as I bead alone, a teacher thing (or that's what I tell myself). It's how I get the design into my head to write a pattern later.
I also talk out loud when I have a conversation coming up that I'm not comfortable with...I tend to rehearse all possible responses. People often say that I'm very calm, patient and I never seem to get angry.....that's pretty much because I have this ritual. If something happens that could make me angry I tend to suck it up at the moment so I can think about it with a clear head and decide if it's really worth getting angry about. That way I can tackle the issue or the person in a calm, collected manner.
The bad thing is not everyone responds to calm and collected. Some people only respond or 'get it' if you get up in their face and shout your head off. I had a room mate like that and the sit down and talk calmly thing didn't do a thing to stop her stealing food and putting empty boxes back in the cupboard. Getting in someone's face and shouting is not my way of dealing with things so if I have to do it I have to rely on my acting skills. And that, of course, needs rehearsal.
I have visions of myself as an old woman wandering around talking to myself and people thinking I'm crazy...not that they don't think that now.
So...what can you do to help me out? Just click one of the little 'reaction' boxes under my posts so I know this blog isn't just me talking to myself and that there are people out there.